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Friday, October 10th, 2008
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10:32 pm - "Know me now bitch!!" Update!
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I posted this little survey thing for the first time back on February 21, 2006.
Here it is again, updated!!
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses/contacts.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[x] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.
Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public
Health
[ ] I was born with a disease.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in an hour
[ ] I've been skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding
Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted.
Drugs/Alcohol
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.
Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
Political/Social Attitudes
[x] In general, I don't like people.
[x] I'm a feminist.
[x] I'm outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[ ] I'm liberal.
[ ] I'm conservative
[x] I don't care about politics
[ ] I'm religious.
[x] I dress fairly modestly.
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."
Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. (perfect example in my opinion: LFO - Summer Girls)
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
current mood:  bored
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| Friday, September 26th, 2008
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1:40 am - Every day, you save my life...
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Eric: *hugs*
Auto response from Chrissy:
Sometimes I swear, I don't know if I'm comin' or goin'.
But you always say something without even knowin',
That I'm hangin' on to your words,
With all of my might and it's alright.
Yeah, I'm alright for one more night.
Every day, every day, every day,
Every day, every day, every day,
You save me, you save me. Oh, oh, oh.
Every day, every, every, every day,
Every day you save my life.
Chrissy: *sings you my a/m*
Eric: =D
Eric: *snuggles and kisses you*
Chrissy: this song makes me think of you
Eric: awwww
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Chrissy: ahhh, i want to cryyy
Eric: whyy???????????
Eric *holds you*
Eric: dont cry =[
Chrissy: this song just makes me think about our relationship
Chrissy: haha
Chrissy: i think it fits perfect
Chrissy: lol
Chrissy: sorry
Chrissy: anywho, go on
Chrissy: haha
Eric: then, wanna make it our song?
Chrissy: lol
Chrissy: did you listen to it?
Chrissy: and read along?
Eric: mhm
Chrissy: what do you think of it?
Eric: im playing it again so it doesnt stop to load
Chrissy: kay
Eric: i like it
Eric: it has a nice flow to it
Chrissy: i know it's a country song
Chrissy: but rascal flatts is one of my fav groups
Eric: mhm
Eric: they arent a bad group
Chrissy: nope
Eric: country has a few good groups
Chrissy: very few
Chrissy: =P
Eric: they just happen to be one of them
Eric: =P
Eric: so, we finally have ourselves a song
Eric: =D
Chrissy: hehe, so you like it that much?
Chrissy: it's not one we'll ever hear on the radio. =P
Chrissy: i heard it yesterday and i couldn't stop thinknig of you.
Chrissy: though, most songs make mje do that >.>
Eric: so? we can make a cd and put it on
Eric: hehehe
Eric: awwwwwwwwwwwww
Eric: *jumps on you and nuzzles in8
Chrissy: lol
Chrissy: i hope you know that i may never sto plistening to it now...
Eric: =]
Eric: thats the point of having our own song
Eric: its ours to abuse
Eric: =P
Chrissy: lol
Chrissy: so you agree that it fits? lol
Eric: mhm
Eric: *kiss*
Eric: me loves you
Chrissy: *kisskisskiss*
Chrissy: i love you too
Chrissy: =]
Chrissy: ahaha, i'm sitting here belting it out
Chrissy: hahahahaha
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Chrissy: WHY DOES THIS MAKE ME WANT TO CRY?!
Chrissy: GOD I'M SUCH A GIRL
Chrissy: i'm listening
Chrissy: -__-
Eric: lol awwww
Eric: then cry
Eric: =D
Chrissy: noooo!
Chrissy: i'm painting my naiiiils!
Chrissy: no crying!
Chrissy: i'm girly enough right now!
Eric: hehehe
Eric: cutes
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Chrissy: lol, i have a question.
Eric: ask away
Chrissy: what made you decide to choose this as our song? lol.
Eric: well
Eric: it makes you wanna cry
Chrissy: lol
Eric: and the lyrics are like a doubled edged sword for us
Chrissy: mhm
Eric: it could be taken either way
Chrissy: that's what i thought too
Eric: mhm
Eric: thats why i think itd be fitting for us
Chrissy: =]
Eric: =D
Eric: *snuggles*
Chrissy: *nuzzle*
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Chrissy <3 Eric
[[ o6 . o9 . o7 ]]
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Rascal Flatts - Every Day
You could've bowed out gracefully, but you didn't.
You knew enough to know,
To leave well enough alone, but you wouldn't.
I drive myself crazy tryin' to stay out of my own way,
The messes that I make, but my secrets are so safe.
The only one who gets me, yeah, you get me.
It's amazing to me how every day,
Every day, every day, you save my life.
I come around all broken down,
And crowded out and you're a comfort.
Sometimes the place I go,
Is so deep and dark and desperate.
I don't know, I don't know how every day,
Every day, every day, you save my life.
Sometimes I swear, I don't know if I'm comin' or goin'.
But you always say somethin' without even knowin',
That I'm hangin' on to your words,
With all of my might and it's alright.
Yeah, I'm alright for one more night.
Every day, every day, every day,
Every day, every day, every day,
You save me, you save me.
Ohhh. Na na na na na na.
Every day, every, every, every day,
Na na na na na na.
Every day you save my life.
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| Monday, August 20th, 2007
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1:02 am - Just because I have nothing better to do with my time...
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Hi. It's been a very long time since I've posted a public entry. I don't bother posting because I've become bored with LJ. Well, I was always bored of LJ. lol. So, I started using it solely to keep a record of some conversations and whatever. Hmm. I'm really bored.
A lot of crap has gone on since my last post. I don't feel like going into it all because if you matter to me at all then you know anything important enough to tell.
My last post was about how I stupidly shoved a 10g and 12g earring in each hole in my lobes. Since then, I've stretched them much further. I've currently got 2g rings in my lobes. I can fit four 12g rings along with two 10g rings in each hole now. That'll give you an idea of the difference in size since then... I also got a tattoo. Four dragonflies on my right outter calve. It goes from my ankle up to my knee. =] And I also pierced my own ears. With a safety pin. It got infected. I took the studs out three day later. This was over two weeks ago and the holes never closed so YAY! Bohaha!
Anyway. Yeah.
I still hate LJ.
I'm still bored.
RAWR. lol.
current mood: bored
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| Saturday, April 14th, 2007
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7:19 pm - Stupidity... lol.
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| Thursday, March 1st, 2007
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4:17 pm - HAIR!
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HAHAHA!!! Yes... I managed to make my father cry... Again...
By the end of this week, I'm preparing to be disowned. HAHA.
Oopsies...
current mood:  devious
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| Sunday, December 10th, 2006
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3:48 am
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Remind me why you still live, LiveJournal.
I can't seem to find a reason for you to be doing so.
You should be dead.
*runs finger along knife blade*
*maniacal laughter*
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| Sunday, November 26th, 2006
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7:43 pm
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| Thursday, October 5th, 2006
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2:05 pm - Grr...
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LJ, I despise you just about as much as I do Xanga. I do not use you for anything besides reading friends entries and commenting... You are evil... Devil Spawn...
RAWR!
current mood:  aggravated
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| Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
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2:21 pm - EEP!
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Yes. I finally got my cartiladge pierced. I know that it's not the "extreme" piercings any of you were expecting, but it's a start. I really wanted the industrial piercing, but I figured I would test my pain limit. Plus, I still have another ear for that. But this is nothing, so I'm thinking I can deal with some other piercings.
Yep, I'm slowly rebelling. I didn't ask my parents or even talk about it with them. My brother paid for it, and my loud mouth cousin mentioned it to my loud mouth aunt who relayed the message home before the parentals got to see me. So yeah, my mom wasn't very happy. I dunnoif she even told my dad. HAHA! Oh well. It's done. Not like I went and came home with a "crazy" piercing. So blah.
I'm gonna be 18 in a few days, I can't wait to get my tattoo. I've been saving all year. I'm not sure exactly what day I'll go for it on, but it should be soon. Hopefully I still have the balls to do it. I'm sure I will.
Anyway, I miss you guys. You know who you are. LOVE YOU!
♥Chrissy
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| Thursday, April 6th, 2006
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8:42 pm - Sounds about right... What do you think?
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----------------JULY--------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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| Saturday, April 1st, 2006
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12:57 am - I will never be the same...
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To all of my St. Al's friends, I want you all to know that I honestly had a good cry before I wrote this. And I will probably cry during and after.
I regret arguing with Ebony now, that I didn't cry earlier, which I didn't. But now I have, and it all started in a simple conversation between Erica and I.
First and foremost, I want you all to know that I love you. And if I don't mention you here, I truly am sorry. I am just saying what comes to mind.
Wennie, I don't think that I can ever honestly be angry with you. We used to spend nearly every day together, but even though we've both made new friends and we have changed some, you are one of my best friends and I would not change that for anything. I love you so much. We are always there for one another and I want to thank you for caring. I know that you've been through a lot, but I know that your future holds so much for you, and I know that you will get every great thing that you deserve.
Erica, I never thougth we'd become so close. You were always the quiet one. Boy was I ever wrong. You are such a great person to talk to and a great dictionary on top of that. I just love that I can have fun with you but be serious when I need to. Just know that I am here for you if ever you need advise or someone to complain to. I love you.
MeMe, my little chef. You are such an amazing person. I have never met someone so generous. You are always the last person that you think of. I want to thank you for all the times you've cooked for me and all the times you shared your Tofu with me. I could never ask for you to change, because you are just so great as you are. I love you.
Tina, I've only really known you for three years, but I would never change that. You have been there and I have tried my best to be there for you. I am always here if you need me. I know I may bitch you out, but I do it with love. I hope that you don't take any of it seriously, because it's not meant that way. I am so glad that I eventually allowed you into the SP1z. I regret saying "no" at first. But that's just how I am. I dislike meeting new people, but maybe you have changed my point of view on that just a little. Thank you for everything my little artist, and I love you.
Gil, what can I say about you? There is so much about you that I love. You are the only guy I can really talk to who understands me. And we know why part of that is. Heh. I would not change you for the world, unless I was making you care more about school work, hah. But seriously, I want to thank you for always taking my shit and never punching me in the face. I feel that you have dealt with alot, and sooner or later you'll recieve what you deserve. I love you.
Justin, I know that people don't treat you like you deserve to be treated, including me. But I know that I do it in a different, more affectionate way. I'm sorry if ever I have hurt your feelings with my harsh jokes. I don't mean anything by it. You are so intelligent, and you deserve so much more than you are given. I want to thank you for driving me places too. And I shall never forget the time you tried to kill me. Hah. I also want to thank you for all the help that you have given me throughout the years. School work and otherwise. If ever you need to talk to me about anything, I am here for you and I won't judge you, I promise. There is something that we sort of have in common, but I'm not going to mention it, only to make you get upset. Wow, i've said alot about you, so finally, I LOVE YOU!
Ebony, we haven't been really close but I really am glad that I have had the chance to have you as a friend. You're fun to hang out with and I really wish that we were closer. I love you.
Cindy, we aren't extremely close but the moments that we have had have been good ones. I hope that everything works out for you in your future. I love you.
Thank you all for being there and taking my crap and just flinging it back. I love you all so much. You have impacted me more than I ever thought would happen. And just a note to two people:
Mapett, you junior. I love you too. I especially love that you run if I attempt to hug you. It's great fun. Silly Mapett. No breakfast for you!
Chelle, you are my best friend. You know that. There is so much that I can say about you here. The most important and prominant thing that I want to say is THANK YOU! You have been there for fourteen years, and without a hitch. I don't think we ever had a serious fight, or any fight at that. You have been there through everything, and I have tried to be there for you.. I know that you don't go to my school, but nevertheless, you have been there. You may live a billion miles away, but my thoughts of you have not changed any. I love you so much. You are the sister I never had and I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you. There were many points in my life where you were my only real friend. I want to thank you for never changing and always being you. The you that I know and love. Thank you.
G'night guys. And one more time. I love you.
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| Friday, March 17th, 2006
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10:56 pm - Pictures...
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| Friday, March 3rd, 2006
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7:27 pm - SOFTBALL TRYOUTS!!!
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Today was the first day of softball tryouts... I'll tell you right now, I'm in pain... I haven't been very physical since I played last summer. It is a little easier than last year thought, the running and what not because I've been trying to get into better shape. Hope it's working. But yeah... My legs are hurting, my head is hurting, my arms are hurting, my arch is hurting... Great stuff... I had to take off my glasses because I didn't want to break them. I've never played with glasses before, seing as I got them in October. But anywho, I had a pretty good time. I miss spending time with my friends. Not bonkers over my coach, and I think vise-versa, so yeah.
Today happened to be the senior social as well... We stayed there for a while, had some pizza and chips. Then we changed and waited for the coach so we can go up to the gym. It's too cold and icy out to play outside. Boring. Oh well... That was my day... Not great fun, but at least it was something... Yep yep...
I hope the team is worth it this year...
[Helter Skelter]
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| Saturday, February 25th, 2006
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9:23 pm - The History Of Murder
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I just want to quote and comment on a part of the book I bought yesterday...
"The 1998 figure showed only 36 victims out of every thousand, the lowest figure ever recorded by this survey. This may seem a disappointing improvement, but it should be remembered that with a US population of around 270 million, this drop of 28 per cent translates as nearly four million fewer violent crimes."
I just want to say that my brother, Joey, was one of those "only 36 victims out of every thousand..." So, I tend to think that this statistic is bullcrap... And to top it off, my brother was a victim of the worst possible violent crime, manslaughter. Though the courts decided that it was second degree manslaughter because they said it was not premeditated. I'm sorry, but when you drive someone to a remote place, beat them over the head with a hammer and tire iron, and stab them in the chest with a screwdriver, you had to have planned it out somewhere along the line.
Then to place the body in the six foot tall weeds under the NJ turnpike in Jersey City. As if this wasn't bad enough, they chose to come to our house and "help" find Joey. They led us on a "wild goose chase" for two weeks. They even called my mother "Momz". Even I was alone with them at one point or another. My family is now gracious that nothing happened to everyone else that spent time alone with these two horrible men. They had the chance to kill me, and not to mention many other members of my family.
Well, I've gotten that out of my system. And just to say one more thing. They were not senteced to nearly enough time. Cid with ten years and Nieves with thirty. Only to say that they are only required to serve 85% of their sentence by state law. I might as well show you the bastards responsible.
Eli Cid
Eric Nieves
I honest hope that you guys rot in the deepest firey pits of hell...
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8:32 pm - Great fun...
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Yesterday was a ton of fun...
After school, Tina, Erica and I went to Erica's house to watch Salad Fingers... Don't ask. After that, we picked up MeMe at Savitri's house. We stayed for a bit, ate a taco...
Then we went to Hoboken, to Barnes & Noble. I got an awesome book for like, eight bucks... It's about 640 pages long, plus the foreword and post script which is about another 26 pages...
MeMe got a french dictionary that came with like, a guide book and a couple CDs. We tried to learn french, but eventually started mumbling the sounds and phrases... I was so lost...
Good stuff.. Then we went to Matsuwa.. If only I could read Japanese... But we tried these cute little snacky things... I dunno, one was a fishy shape made out of like, pancake batter and filled with bean.. The other was circular and filled with creme.
After that, we had to drop Tina off. Then we went to some Thai & Japanese restaurant in Bayonne... GOOD FOOD!
Then we went to MeMe's to pick up Mapett. We drove around for hours looking for a place to get desert. We went back to Bayonne and the Lighthouse was closed, so we went all the way back to Hoboken, got lost in the "ghetto", came back to Jersey City only to get fries and a milkshake from McDonalds of Communipaw. It definitely was not a waste though. I had a great time with my friends..
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
But now I am sick, and I'm hating this... I hope I get better soon... Damn it...
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| Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
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9:43 pm - But I can never have you...
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The truth is, I have no chance with you, isn't it....
Stupid ass poem... Don't judge me.
Unfounded Feelings
It is called a crush because it crushes your heart
It is nothing more than a simple attraction
Though it is not your looks, but your soul that makes me swoon.
The truth is that I can never have you
And but one person knows my secret
Never for you to discover.
The secret goes deeper as my feelings are for someone which others may not approve
Stereotypes and judgments hold my heart behind bars
From a fear of discovery and apprehension by others.
It is not my fault that I feel this way
It isn't like I try to be different
I am who I am, and I can't change that.
Acceptance is key, and it comes from my part
I admit, it was a foolish thought
This could never be, you're heart belongs to another.
I shall let it be and let this "love" die
For it is for your betterment that I do so
And continue to keep this secret to myself.
current mood:  lonely
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| Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
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7:09 pm - Know me now, bitch...
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[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses/contacts.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
School/Work
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.
Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public
Health
[ ] I was born with a disease.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in an hour
[ ] I've been skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding
Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted.
Drugs/Alcohol
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.
Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
Political/Social Attitudes
[x] In general, I don't like people.
[x] I'm a feminist.
[x] I'm outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[ ] I'm liberal.
[ ] I'm conservative
[x] I don't care about politics
[ ] I'm religious.
[x] I dress fairly modestly.
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."
Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. (perfect example in my opinion: LFO - Summer Girls)
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
current mood:  cold
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| Monday, February 20th, 2006
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11:43 am - God Damn It!
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MeMe, Erica, Tina and I spent the day before hwer birthday together. Cooking and what not... You can see Erica's blog for pics of that and the party... MeMe and Erica forced me into her bathroom and washed my hair because MeMe wanted to play with it. I am not the girly type that likes to play with her hair. Damn you guys... But I willingly let MeMe cut my hair. About three inches of it... You can also see pictures of this on Erica's blog. I willingly wore my hair down for a while... A sort of forceed willingly, but willingly nonetheless...
Yesterday was fun... Erica had her party... Then we somehow got her to OLV without her knowing, up and down stairs while she held her eyes shut... It's a good thing MeMe didn't kill her while running her in circles while she was blinded... I hope she had fun as well...
Afterwards we decided to go bowling... Waited nearly an hour for our lanes... Originally we asked for 4 lanes, but half of the people, i guess, felt that they didn't want to wait, and left. So then we told them we only needed 2 lanes. When we finally got our lanes, only MeMe, Tina, Jared, Albie and I decided we actually wanted to bowl... So once again, we asked for them to give us half of the lanes we asked for...
My first game I bowled a 124, and by 1:00 our cabs were outside but we still had half a game to bowl and an hour left on our lanes. I had an 80-something in the sixth or seventh frame... I was sad to have to leave, but we had to. All in all, it was a fun day and night.
I also have to mention something I was quite shocked to see on TV last night. On A&E there was a show about Nazi Skinheads and the KKK... It was kind of like a documentary. But it seemed like it was meant to be positive. I was utterly shocked by what the cops were letting them get away with. These people are the reason I am ashamed to be white. And they held a "peaceful" demonstration. Shouting "kill ni**ers, kill jews" while the cops, of all races I must add, did their job and protected these bastards from the angry onlookers. It disgusts me how shitty people can be. That is why I say I hate white people, because they do stupid shit like that.... Nazi Skinheads and the KKK can suck my balls because they are total assholes and they have no balls of their own. FUCK YOU!
Today is a new day. A cold one, but new. I shall update another day.
current mood: aggravated
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| Saturday, February 11th, 2006
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11:56 am - Lollipop lollipop....
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HI PEOPLE!
Well, I had a blast making lollipops yesterday morning... We celebrated Mr. Mullaghy's birthday with some yummy ice cream cone cupcakes made by MeMe and some Puto and eggrolls made by Mrs. Mullaghy. They were all awesome! I squeeled when Mrs. Mullaghy handed me the Puto... I LOVE PUTO! WHEEEEEEEEE! And afterward... We made lollipops... We did a pretty good job for first-timers...
The funniest part of the day was first thing in the morning when I ripped the door off of my moms van... I didn't know I was that strong ... But yeah.. hte sliding door was stuck and I pushed it so hard that it fell off track and literally FELL OFF of the van... I fixed it enough to get it back home where Louis worked on it for 2 hours... Sorry Mom and Louis... Daddy doesn't know so SHHHH!
Also, got to hang out with Erica, Tina, and MeMe for the rest of the day. We went to Cinema 12 to see Curious George. That HAS to be the cutest movie EVER! I fell in love with George and almost cried at one point... I was louder than some of the children in the theater... Squeeling and bouncing... I'm "special" aren't I?
After that, we went to 1st street park in Bayonne and took some pictures... At one point, we were stuck in a spiritual vortex which Tina mocked me and Erica about... I guess that's just not something she's into... Then we were walking along and all of a sudden a lone car parked in the lot started up, so we got nervous and walked back to the car. I stood outside while the ladies got in, hoping I wouldn't have to fight for the first time in my life... HAHA... I was ready to protect my friends though...
Next, we went on an expedition trying to figure out how to get to the Rag Shop. We eventually figured it out and walked around the Rag Shop for a while. Then we went to Just A Buck and then A&E since they're all right there by eachother. I had a ball... We took more pictures..
Finally, we decided to go somewhere for desert. We decided on Magic Fountain, but then MeMe remembered a Place on Avenue C where we could get Bubble Tea... We were pretty excited, and we found our way there. Parking was a whole other story... we drove around for nearly 45 minutes looking for a parking space. We found a few but they were either illegal or too small.. When we finally did find a spot, it was 2 blocks away. People were getting angry because we were too slow or whatever. People are so impatient. Erica was so frustrated, LOVE YOU ERICA! When we finally got inside, we were exclaiming that this Bubble Tea had better be worth our time. It wasn't... Mine and Tina's (mango) was fine... But MeMe and Erica's (Papaya) was exceedingly sweet. And to make it worse, the tapioca balls in either of our drinks were uncooked and chewy. MeMe complained and got a new one, but it still was't exactly right. I was forced to finish the Mango, since Tina no longer wanted any. And They tried to make me finish the Papaya but I would have puked. We thre it away.
Finally we dropped Tina and MeMe off, then Erica dropped me off. All in all it was a good day. So much fun... And to Tina, Erica, and MeMe... I LOVE YOU GUYS! My tri-valentines... I hope that our plans stick for valentines day...
I came home to a pissy brother... Got an attitude with me and ruined my day. But it's okay because it's the memories that we had that day that make it what it was, and what it was was great! I am thankful for my friends.. Even the ones who weren't there, and the ones I don't see so often.
Well, this blog is getting a bit long, so i'll shut up now. One final thought: I DON'T WANT IT TO SNOW!!!
I shall update with the pictures we took as soon as I can...
current mood: thankful
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| Thursday, February 9th, 2006
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4:59 pm - Sunshine after the rain...
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Feeling much better today.. Still sickly, but only a little congested... I'm just SUPER happy because tomorrow is "Food Science" in Physics... Three periods of candy making with a little learning and a lot of fun! WHEE!
I CAN'T WAIT TO MAKE MY SPIRAL LOLLIPOPS!
*gets over excited*
*hits head on the wall*
Ouch...
Yeah... I'll update you on how it all goes!
current mood:  bouncy
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